My first blog

I am not much of a writer, we'll have to see how this goes. I thought it would be a neat idea for me to start a blog and wirte down daily adventures, issues, joys, etc. Almost like a diary I guess, but without having to endure writers cramp. Hopefully my children will allow me the time to sit down daily or at least every few days and write.

First a little about me...
I am 29 and live on the southern Oregon coast. I love it on the coast! The smell of the ocean and the sound of waves crashing entices me. I think I was ment to live on or very near the coast.
I have 4 children (and 1 on the way due Feb 25th 2011!) The 2 oldest are my step children. Shelby is 15 and Dominique will be 17 this Feb. I have raised them for 10 years along with my husband. Shelby now lives with her mother. I first met them when I was about 20 years old and have been there ever since. I was the constant mother figure in their lives for quite a long time. I see them as my own children, want the best for them, hurt when they hurt, worry daily about them...normal things a biological mother would feel for her children. My 2 biological children are Lillian 5 and Ashlee 3.
It was hard on me when Shelby decided to move to her mother's. I almost felt like I wasn't good enough for her as mother and had let her down...didn't do a good enough job. I had been there through all the things her mother hadn't been there for. She had her tonsils removed and I was there, she wanted me, I was there for the falls, scrapes, bruises, bullies, school trips...I thought that I had done a good enough job as a "mom". I knew she had always had a connection with her mom, and I never tried to REPLACE her mom, that is something that cannot be taken away, ever. Still...it hurt terribly, after all the years I had been there and done everything in my power that I could do for her. Maybe that is selfish of me, and I AM getting better!

My husband and I have been together for 10 years and married for 6! Doesn't seem like it has been that long! We have had our good times and we have had a lot of rough times. Seems like the rough ones out number the good, mostly on the financial field. We are a good couple though, we think a lot alike, have the same views on raising children. I helped bring him to Christ. He is a loving man and a great dad to his kids. We are pretty compatable. Of course we don't always agree on everything and we have our arguments...usually I am the one to stay mad, he gets over it quickly lol!

So I guess this is the end of my first blog. Just a little background on me, I'm sure more will come out in later blogs. I'm sure there will be ugly things and beautiful things that will occur in this blog, hopefully nothing will bore you too much!